I stood there, staring at the same familiar scene, feeling the weight of déjà vu wash over me. The same feeling, once again, bubbling up from deep within. The sinking realization hit hard: I was fooling myself, just like I had before. And in that moment, I recognised the truth—this wasn’t the first time I had done this to myself.
I’d been down this road before, pretending that things were different, that the cost of my choices was somehow justified. But when the price you pay is higher than life itself, the illusion can no longer hold.
The Return Visit: An All-Too-Familiar Feeling
It wasn’t the same place I revisited but a mental and emotional space—a state of mind where I convinced myself that everything was fine, that I could handle the burden. But this time, something was different. I recognized the signs. The creeping discomfort, the feeling that something was wrong, and that uneasy awareness that I was making the same mistake yet again.
Have you ever experienced that? Returning to a situation, a relationship, a decision, and realizing that nothing had truly changed? No matter how much I tried to gloss over it, this time I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was paying a price too high. The sacrifice felt familiar—too familiar. And that’s when it hit me.
The Cost of Fooling Myself
I had been lying to myself about the price I was willing to pay. In life, we make trade-offs—time for money, passion for security, peace for acceptance. But there comes a point where the cost outweighs the value of what you gain in return. And for me, that moment of recognition came like a tidal wave crashing down.
I had convinced myself that the compromises were worth it. That sacrificing my own well-being, happiness, and TRUTH was just part of life’s equation. But I was wrong. The things I was sacrificing weren’t just negotiable pieces—they were essential parts of who I am. My peace of mind. My integrity. My joy. I realized that, in fooling myself, I was eroding the very foundation of my life.
Recognising the Same Pattern
This wasn’t the first time I had been in this position. I’d done it before, pretending that I was strong enough to carry a load too heavy for my soul, convincing myself that I could power through if I just tried hard enough. But each time, I ended up in the same place—feeling depleted, empty, and questioning how I allowed myself to get there again.
(And let's be honest here, if working HARD was going to get us to where we would be, we would already be there!)
(And let's be honest here, if working HARD was going to get us to where we would be, we would already be there!)
The more I reflected on it, the more I realised this pattern had been a recurring theme in my life. I was a master of pretending that I was invincible, that nothing could break me. But the cracks in my façade were always there, and this visit to the same emotional terrain showed me that it was time to stop pretending. It was time to truly evaluate the cost of my decisions and stop fooling myself into thinking I could afford to keep paying this price.
SPIRITUAL NEWS
EITHER WE PAY OR WE PAY
The Recognition
Admitting to yourself that you’ve been fooling yourself isn’t easy. It requires humility and vulnerability. It forces you to confront your own limits and accept that sometimes, despite our best efforts, we’re not as in control as we’d like to believe.
But with this recognition comes power. Recognizing the pattern means you have the chance to break it. And that’s what I needed to do—to stop revisiting the same choices, paying the same unbearable price, and expecting a different outcome.
I had to reclaim my life.
Moving Forward
So, what do you do when you realize you’ve been fooling yourself? You reckon with it. You stop denying the truth, and you face it head-on. You accept that some prices are too high, and you decide that you won’t pay them anymore.
I took what seems like a 'drastic' decision, just like the last time this situationship came to the surface. I kept it for myself also just as last time, to protect my peace. I did not need anyone else fear sticking to my manifestation. My human brain was trying to measure risk vs reward, but I had to listen to my soul. Always. All the way.
The price of fooling yourself is steep, but recognising it is the first step toward freedom. And I’m committed to choosing a different path.
Nothing sincerely changed in or around me before the first time I took what seemed like a drastic move. I stopped all the FREE TRAILING all around social media. Because you know what; no free material will get you there, and energy never lies, it mirrors. Funny when I took a look inside my business with the mirror glasses on back in the days. Instead of waiting on the first paying client in my business, I became the paying client, and the rest is history.
Anyways I bought into a mentor once again. Not any mentor! Not the one my present self is comfortable with, or the one I could afford right now, or the temporary one until I feel ready for the one I truly want to learn from and be beside. NOPE enough of that! haven't we all tried that, and with what result?. (I usually end up being into that dreamer person anyway, after spending on the one my intuition knew was just not it.) So, I bought into the Mentor of my dreams, the mentor with not only the goals, but the road similar to my vision! I invested in the one my future self would point at. From that point of, things started changing in front of my eyes, for my favour, just like magic 🪄 once again, just different. Because I believe we are meant to change and evolve, that our vision keeps changing and growing. And our setbacks only are indicators from the universe for that next leap of faith.
Never settle for less, and never dim yourself.
- Invest your way - you are worth it -
Nothing sincerely changed in or around me before the first time I took what seemed like a drastic move. I stopped all the FREE TRAILING all around social media. Because you know what; no free material will get you there, and energy never lies, it mirrors. Funny when I took a look inside my business with the mirror glasses on back in the days. Instead of waiting on the first paying client in my business, I became the paying client, and the rest is history.
Anyways I bought into a mentor once again. Not any mentor! Not the one my present self is comfortable with, or the one I could afford right now, or the temporary one until I feel ready for the one I truly want to learn from and be beside. NOPE enough of that! haven't we all tried that, and with what result?. (I usually end up being into that dreamer person anyway, after spending on the one my intuition knew was just not it.) So, I bought into the Mentor of my dreams, the mentor with not only the goals, but the road similar to my vision! I invested in the one my future self would point at. From that point of, things started changing in front of my eyes, for my favour, just like magic 🪄 once again, just different. Because I believe we are meant to change and evolve, that our vision keeps changing and growing. And our setbacks only are indicators from the universe for that next leap of faith.
Never settle for less, and never dim yourself.
- Invest your way - you are worth it -
VISION has always been my key. Remembering my bigger mission and long term vision. With that in mind, what used to feel like a hard decision, is now very easy action.
Maiiken Malicentto
So, if you’ve been fooling yourself too—about a relationship, a job, or even your own limits—let this be your wake-up call. Don’t wait until the price becomes too much. Recognise it for what it is, and choose yourself before it’s too late.
Alchemist
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